You have the chance to view some of her photos directly here in Streetfashion MagZZine. Thanks for the photos and submission of this article to Dusko Lukovic.
Kristina was styled by makeup artist Andrea Jovanovic. The video was taken by Stefan Tovilovic. Thanks to all the team for this article.
We all have a life story. We all have a personal inner space, where every experience, every important events in our life is hidden. Everything that have contributed to my becoming who I am today. My inner space is my preunderstanding for the way I define myself.
So what do I have in my inner space?
When I was a kid, I was bullied all through elementary school. I always felt different. As if I didn't fit in the molde everyone else was made in. It was a lonely place to be. I didn't have any real friends. I had to lie most of the time to appear normal. Lie about having friends, lie to protect my parents from the truth.To protect myself from life.
After high-school, I did my military-service in The Kings Guard of Norway. Still playing the flute. I spend most of the time by myself, when we didn't have rehearsals.
The community have your life figured out even before you are born. Everything you have to do in life in order to fit in. To blend in easily among everyone else. Elementary school, high-school military-service, higher education as a bachelor or a master, and then find a place to work. In between the educational goals, you should find someone to live with, have kids, and buy a home.
When I finished my Bachelor in child welfare, began working, and had kids, I sort of lost a bit of myself. I felt like a robot on autopilot.
In the same time period of time, I saw an add on Facebook. Two photografers were looking for TFP (Trade for prints) models in my aera. I knew that I woudn't fit their description, but as a challenge to myself, I sent my information to them. I was very surprised to hear that they wanted to work with me. I instantly thought about my lack of experience in front of the camera. I have always hated to be taken pictures of. I've never liked to be in the spotlight. This would be a great challenge for me.
After the first photoshoot, I could notice a difference in myself. The exposure therapy the photoshoot was to me, had given me several pictures of myself, that I was satisfied with. That had never happened before. And the photografers wanted to continue working with me. Scheduled more photoshoots. Suddenly I had something meaningful in my life.
I started playing my flute again after many years without even touching it. It was tough. The clear and beautiful tone I had before I quit was gone. The technique was slow, and I knew that it was going to be hard work for me to get back on track on my playing. And my physical diagnosis prevented me from being able to play as much as I wanted to.
The kids father and I decided to go separate ways one and a half year ago. I had to start over again. Find a place to live, collaborate with the kids father for the kids best interest. We have the kids 50/50. That means that I actually have one week where I'm totally alone. Have you ever spend 7 days in a row without talking to anyone? Without social interraction? It's lonely. But it tought me that I had to do something more with my life.
I couldn't set myself in the center of my own pittyparty any longer. I had to change my believes from unhealthy to healthy. I had to realize that I'm the only one responsible for how I choose to see myself in my life. How I can choose how others reflect on me, and how I reflect on others.
A life story is always a work in progress. We are in charge of how we shape our inner space. We can always choose to add a previously forgotten anecdote that reveals our inner strength. We can always choose to highlight our successes and accomplishments. We can always convey our setbacks in terms of what we learned from them. There are many ways to tell a tale. Even the same tale. When we compose our personal narratives in our inner space, we get to decide which events are important enough to be included. We get to connect the dots and draw our own conclusions. In this way, we are empowered to determine how we want to define ourselves, which in turn shapes our hopes and expectations for the future.
New year: I am very excited for this year but every year has ups and downs so my downs started a bit earlier than most. Cyber bullying is a big thing people are taught not to do. Yet, many people still do it. I was a victim this year. However, it showed me that people will be rude and I am going to have challenges and people, who don't like me . That is, why I say life is like climbing a mountain. I am working my way to the top. I have lost some and gained some and yes it hurts. Yet I know there will be people, that will try to bring me down. However I will keep climbing to the top no matter what i am going to succeed and no one will stop me from achieving my dreams. I am determined to earn my success.
On the other hand I had many amazing photo shoots with Tim Bear. I am looking forward to many more . I am very excited for an upcoming photo shoot for my birthday. Look out for it we have a really cool theme for it. Also many things are happening with Modelemi, the agency, I am with. I am so happy I get to be a part of it! This is going to be a good year and I can't wait. I am going to start updating more
heather rose !!"
photos and creation of the "Bonnie and Clyde"-theme by Tim Bear, Modelemi LLC
Now, I can see and walk normally, but I still have side effects like bilateral integration which makes it hard to use my left and right side together, memory loss, and auditory processing disorder. My journey to overcome these issues are what led me to join the modeling industry.
I was bullied all the time because of my “clumsiness” and memory issues, not to mention the fact that hearing things wrong all the time is super weird, right? Girls would roll their eyes when I couldn’t pick up a PE sport very well, or if I couldn’t match up with their movements as fast. So for a really long time, my confidence was terrible and my mom called me her “Japanese Wallflower”. I became so shy and self-conscious that it was ridiculous! I couldn’t keep eye contact – partially because of my stroke and being blind for almost 3 years, but partially because of how low I felt being embarrassed all the time- and I spoke so hardly anyone could hear me.
It’s a bit wild and crazy, the preparations for everything- setting up a portfolio and making sure you’re in your best condition mentally and physically, but it’s worth it. Because whether it’s something I’d wear all the time- which is usually leggings or jeans and a sweater- or things I’d pull out for fun, like leather jackets and knee high boots, I love it all. There’s a thrill in forgetting everything and just playing dress up. It’s a comfort, a reminder of warmth and safety, like when I was ten playing in my mom’s closet. It’s also exciting and fun!
In about five years, I hope to have furthered my career so that I can model all of those things I day dreamed about, either in magazines, or on a runway, and maybe publish some fiction books along the way! I hope to empower others with my story, continue to grow to be a braver and better person, and work as hard as I can. I hope to travel, make lots of friends, and rest in the certainty of God’s love and strength, for I wouldn’t be here, the way I am, without all the doors he’s opened for me, and the wonderful people he’s placed in my life.
If you are ever considering trying modeling, I encourage you to give it your all! It’s nothing like anything you’ve ever done or felt before. Find a good photographer, and find some awesome outfits that you love and feel great in. Study poses you like, put on some music, and go! I’m almost certain you won’t regret it! I’ve had to overcome many obstacles but I haven’t let it stop me and neither should you!
If anyone has a goal or just want to lose weight, the hardest part is the first month. Once you get through that, you look, you feel better, and your confidence is indescribable. If I can do it, anyone can. My goal was to get ready for a photoshoot but I think I'm going to stick with my plan. Btw I'm on a flexible diet. Some days I eat 6 times a day small portions, other days I eat 4 meals w/ lots of carbs. I do cardio after every workout which isnt necessary for everyone. I just have a certain goal I'm trying to meet. I hope I can inspire people that if you set your mind to it, you can really achieve it. Don't give up."
In this first issue Heather is going to introduce herself. Follow Heather and her way into the world of modeling here in Streetfashion MagZZine:
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This month we like to intruduce you Michelle Johnson from Dallas, Texas, United States, who is going to have a photoshoot with Tim Bear. Tim is director of photography for Streetfashion MagZZine and also for Texas based model agency Modelemi LLC, that will run Streetfashion MagZZine's Academy. In preparation for this shooting Michelle will train herself during the next 31 days and we gonna follow her.
To provide you a little background, Michelle Johnson is 5'9" tall and has 145lbs. She is half Filipino and half Iranian. Michelle graduated from UNT with a degree in Business Administration. After she graduated, her best friend told her about a job offer for New Fine Arts. The starting pay was amazing, especially since Michelle just graduated and has been with the company for 9 years. But let's Michelle continue to tell a bit about herself: "I'm a tattoo collector and I don't stick to just one artist. I'm also an amateur boxer and I'm pretty good with a knife. I grew up on dirt bikes and I'm basically a tomboy. Now that I think about it, I think my parents wanted a little boy and got me instead haha. I've been offered photo deals before, but always turned them down, since I used to work 50+ hours a week. Now that I don't have a hectic schedule, I figured why not? My boyfriend, who does pre and post op therapy, gave me an entire month's worth of workouts and meal preps. I'm documenting my journey starting Dec 1 via Instagram and FaceBook for the entire month. I will be posting progress pictures everyday until my photo shoot. I'm excited to have been given this opportunity and can't wait to see where this new journey takes me."
you find her on our current cover August 2016 ... young and upcoming model Luna Taylor, based in Texas, United States. She's the girl next door, discovered by our Texas photographer Tim Bear. Here you see her performing in front of the camera. Take a look at her photos and learn a bit more about this beautiful young model in our interview with her in ZZ MODEL FEATURE
You have seen her already in our feature about photographer Joakim Fransson. Swedish model Karoline Davidsson is modeling for Acquo Boots. Learn a bit more about this sympathetic model with the beautiful smile and read our interview with her in ZZ MODEL FEATURE